Though
Krishna had warned Arjuna that this would be the most possible
outcome of all his negotiations with the Kauravas,
Arjuna was still depressed when he saw a morose looking Krishna come
back from Hastinapur.
'I
tried.... I really tried!' Krishna said as he looked at the Pandavas.
'I even prayed for five villages.... one for each one of you, to
avert the war!' Krishna shook his head. 'Duryodhana refused to
listen....' Krishna laughed mirthlessly. 'He said he would not even
part with the land the size of a needle head.... to the
Pandavas....' Krishna took a deep breath.
Arjuna
looked at the Dark Lord and said softly. 'War it is!'
Krishna
nodded his head. 'War it is!'
And
so massive preparations had started for the Kurukshetra war
between the Pandavas and the Kauravas for the land of Hastinapur.....
********************
Arjuna
was now standing in the beautiful chariot pulled by four white horses
as the Dark Lord sat at the saddle before him minding the horses.
Arjuna felt a little....small...as he saw Krishna with the horses.
Arjuna knew that anybody who came close to Krishna immediately felt a
calming effect....Krishna had that effect on people...Animals were
obviously no exception. The white horses looked
confidently as Krishna patted them....
Arjuna
was thinking about how Krishna had kept the promise he had made to
Duryodhana. Krishna said he would not fight the war with weapons...
and he did not. That was the reason... and his inborn gift with
animals made Krishna participate in the war as a charioteer to
Arjuna...Arjuna knew that with Krishna's infinite wisdom and
guidance he could ask for nothing more.....But deep
down it rankled....Krishna...his Krishna as a charioteer.....not
as a warrior....But as a charioteer....
Krishna
looked at Arjuna with great love and affection. He stared at the
enemy lines and the great people who stood proudly willing to
fight....Krishna smiled mirthlessly....This was the
battle....It was for this battle that he had come....To remove the
warriors....all of them from the face of the earth before the onset
of Kaliyuga....Krishna
looked at Arjuna...Arjuna was the tool through which
he was going to do it....
As
Krishna stared at Arjuna, he felt something from the young
warrior.... Krishna narrowed his
gaze... Doubt...Fear....Regret.... Krishna
was puzzled. Arjuna was a brilliant warrior. In fact
the only flaw Arjuna ever had was that he tried to be fair no matter
what....Fair to his enemies even if they did not deserve
it....
Krishna studied Arjuna once more..... Genuine doubt
and regret.....Krishna nodded.... Arjuna was slowly coming to understand the
enormity of the situation.....
************
Arjuna
was staring at the ranks of the Kauravas. In that morning when
he was talking with Krishna, it had been so simple....Take out the
Gandiva, kill the enemy and take back what is rightfully yours and
everything would go back to normal....But now...Arjuna eyed Bhishma –
his grandfather, Drona,
his teacher, Kripacharya, Duryodhana.....his
cousin....The
words formed in Arjuna's mind even before he could stop
it....Duryodhana was his father's brother's
son......For
all practical purposes Duryodhana was his family.....And
they were standing on opposite camps in a war ready to annihilate
each other....Arjuna
stared as his hands as they started trembling slightly....The Gandiva
which had been his power, his companion, his soul..., for the first
time felt like a heavy burden on his shoulders.....
Arjuna
looked at Krishna. 'What are we doing, Kesava?'
he
asked looking at Krishna with wide, innocent and tired eyes. 'What
am I doing?'Krishna
looked at Arjuna saying nothing. Arjuna continued as tears unbidden
came to his eyes. 'Krishna! We are in a battlefield...And do you know
what?' Arjuna looked around and turned to Krishna, his eyes looking
wild, 'I do not see anyone whom I want to kill. I see....' Tears
clouded Arjuna's eyes as his voice broke. 'I see teachers, uncles,
grandfathers, sons, brothers....I see only my
family...my....family...'
Krishna
sensed that there was more and waited for Arjuna to continue. Arjuna
looked at the other side of the battlefield and took a deep breath
trying to control himself. 'I....I....cannot kill
them...Not
for the whole universe....' Arjuna looked at Krishna. 'You want me to
kill them for a mere kingdom...' Arjuna sobbed. 'What will we get?
What will we get from all this?' Arjuna pointed around him. 'You
really think I would get peace by killing all these people...The only
thing I will get by killing these people is guilt and sin...' Arjuna
shook his head in disgust. 'You want me to kill for that?'
A
sudden crazy light came to Arjuna's eyes. 'Madhusudhana! You will
tell me that they are evil and wicked...But you are forgetting
Krishna...' Arjuna shook his head. 'You are forgetting that we know
what is evil..We know that destruction of the family is nothing but
pure evil...And you want me to do that! Why?' It was a plaintive cry
of a child unwilling to accept that he had to do what needed to be
done. Arjuna shivered. 'People who destroy their own family are in
for the worst hell and....and...' Arjuna put his head in hands and
cried. 'I cannot do it, Krishna! It....it would be better if
Duryodhana just kills me now!'
Arjuna
looked at Krishna almost angrily. 'I will not fight....' For the
first time
in his life, Arjuna let the Gandiva slip from his hands.....He wanted
absolutely nothing to do with it....It was a weapon
of destruction....He would become a sinner if he used it....
Krishna
looked at Arjuna with a strange light in his eyes. 'Kaunteya! Why?'
Arjuna looked at Krishna with a frown. 'Why am I even hearing these
words from you? These words.....they do not suit a warrior....And you
are a warrior....A fighter!'
Arjuna
looked broken. 'Bhishma and Drona are...people whom I have to
worship....' Arjuna looked resolutely as he shook his head. 'I would
rather beg and live on the streets than fight and kill such people!'
Krishna
looked at Arjuna and started softly. 'Arjuna! You....You are wasting
your breath thinking about people who do not deserve your pity.'
Krishna almost smiled. 'But you speak wise words! Wise words!'
Arjuna
looked at Krishna uncomprehendingly as Krishna continued. 'You said
these people are your relatives....' Krishna shook his head.
'No.....they are not!'
Arjuna looked surprised as Krishna continued. 'Wise
men from all over the world....they have found that the souls inhabit
the body for a short time and move on to another body...what do you
see in these people....their bodies or their souls?.....The bodies
are perishable....will be there today and cease to exist
tomorrow....That is the law of nature. Whoever
is born has to die!' Krishna looked at Arjuna. 'Is that what you are
afraid to destroy Partha? Their bodies?'
Arjuna
stared at Krishna as he continued. 'As far as their souls are
concerned....' Krishna almost smiled. 'I do not think anyone has the
capacity to destroy the soul. It can neither be created nor can it
cease to exist, my friend.....It will always be there....No matter
what...'
Krishna
smiled. 'You are a warrior! It is your duty to fight! Think about it,
my friend! If you die in the battlefield, you go to heaven! If you
win, you win the earth!' Krishna smiled. 'Fight! Fight treating both
pleasure, pain, victory, defeat, everything alike....Just do your
duty without expecting the results....That way you do not incur any
sin, my friend!'
Krishna
continued as he saw his distraught friend. 'Our actions are what
define us, Arjuna!
All of us have to act. We always keep doing something....When we do
our duty....and do it without expecting the results.....that is when
you become the Karma Yogi!' Krishna pointed around. 'Fighting this
war is your duty....Do it....Do not look at the result of your
action....Just do what you have to do and....' Krishna looked at the
battlefield and smiled. '...leave all your worries, regrets and fears
to me!'
And so the
greatest discourse continued.....right there in the battlefield with
Arjuna as the audience. Krishna knew that the words which came from
his mouth were not only for the one man before him, but for the whole
mankind..... A guide.... for people to follow.....The words were the
Song of the Lord....or the Bhagawat Gita.
Krishna
revealed his Vishwaroopam to Arjuna, which was the supreme form of
Lord Vishnu. With awe Arjuna saw that the entire universe originated
in Lord Vishnu and resided in him.....
When Krishna
finished, Arjuna glanced at the Gandiva which felt strong in his arms
once again. He looked at the people surrounding him in battlefield.
He now knew what he had to do and he would do it....with Krishna as
his charioteer.......
The author thanks Mr. A. Narayanan for his review comments.
Each line of the story has an inner meaning.Hindu mytological stories are metphores and they mean more than what they actually mean.One can understand it only when one read it wholeheartedly and once it is understood the esssence of GOD is injected to the heart
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